Sunday, April 5, 2009
Embrace Your Awesomeness!
I'm sick and tired of Math OFFICIALLY!!I've got no choice.. cos' there isn't any choice. Sometimes, I search for a good reason for going to school. The reason we study so hard is to gget a good-paying job in the future, and after getting that good-paying job, we work so hard to get a promotion. After the promotion, we want to be the top. People are never satisfied, but on the other hand, there are people who aren't so career-minded. They just want to have a good job, and then find their perfect soulmate and then settle down with the love of their life and maybe, have kids and watch them grow up, and the process starts again. In reality, money controls the world. The economy goes down, recession strikes, people start getting worried if they'll get the retrenchment, then things in the supermarket start rising up like crazy, housewives shriek in dismay and all goes down... the world is moving in circles.
Anyway, I'll only think like that if I start hating some subjects like A Math.
Well, I believe teachers make a difference in your life. The way they impact, influence and encourage you. The little things they do to show their love, care and concern. They are the world's most patient people you have ever known. They scold you because they care, while some maybe.. And all the above just doesn't match me, so I can never become a teacher. I can just freaking lose my temper at any moment. I can frustrated when someone don't get the message I'm trying to convey. I get frustrated with myself if I don't understand some things that I have to understand, like Math.
Seriously, I can only boost my self-esteem in math when I start getting good grades for it, but some math questions just never fail to put me off. It's complicated really..
I'm really stress right now, and this feeling of mine is bugging me like crazy. I haven't been revising lately and it makes me feel really guilty, even though I know what I'm doing is wrong. I have been using this damn laptop for 4 consecutive days. Is this a sin?? I know it is wrong and the Mid-Year Exams are in 3 weeks. and I'm freaking slacking like no one's business. I have to work with pressure. I enjoy studying in a hectic, pressurising and stress-free environment. I know it doesn't make any sense at all, but I couldn't bear to see my life stuck in a mess, and if I don't study now, I will feel distraught after getting back my hellish results after the Mid-Year Exams.
I really need a wake up call! Throw in some inspiration with style and I'll bring it on the "runway". And whenever I'm ready, I'll press the green button and the aftermath will be a sweet little surprise. Tell me about Embracing My Awesomeness!
Till the "wow-factor" is back.. I'll give you...
LOLA! :D