I want my money back.
Yeah, I don't pay for laziness, and you know who you are.
Seeking sympathy doesn't work for me anymore, I'm getting sick, so please come up with new ideas to entertain me. I'll be glad to actually. So, before you start anything, please think of the consequences. You'll end up seeking for people to join with AGAIN!
Oh, and about originality, why don't you grab some first, before trying to steal from someone.
Your schemes doesn't work for me anymore, cheerios, L!

Oh yeah, I'll be mean if you want me to. I'll play the game even though it risks my hands to get dirty. I'll be exceptionally pleased, and will be really kind to stick plasters all over your face. You have caused troubles to so many and blame each and everyone of us fo hurting you when the problem lies with you, and you alone.

How irritating can you be??
This is sheer shit, like seriously, though it's stupid to keep on clinging on to hope.
I hate you!! Hoping for that very chance that one day I'll forget about you.
It's dumb and irritating when you told me about her, and I stupidly play along!
Damn thing! I wish I could hate you, it's less suffering than crushing on you.


I'll set a rule that I'll use the computer at night.
And then stop burning the midnight oil and fully concentrate on my studies.
From tomorrow onwards of course. After the Mid-Year Exams, it's Chinese all the way, till 1 June is over. Oh yeah. Then I'll start mugging for A & E Math and Chemistry.
The rest I can mug when I'm confident for Math and Chemistry.

Lola.

*I should change lola to something else, it's getting wierd~!

Oh yeah, you won't believe it.
I'm bringing Chinese into my subjects of hope of becoming one of the high passing range.
Yes, you got to believe it. You'll see me making magic changing F9s to A1s will make your jaw drop. Today's MT Paper, was one of the best Chinese composition I've ever written. It's like OMG!! Bang bang bang!! Random. We'll sing Bang the Drum by S.G.

Seriously, my hard work has paid off for Chinese, but my Ms L is never satisfied, like she kept on blaming us for watching movies during Chinese lessons last year, but after all, our class still topped the whole cohort for chinese last year though the movies we watched were English movies. Wierd huh? Teachers are never satisfied with your results.

I'm crazy over Selena Gomez, Taylor Swift and Lady Ga Ga.
They rock my smelly socks. Social Studies next Tuesday. I'm so gonna have a great laugh, you'll know why...

Okay, firstly I was jumping with joy after EL Paper 2. It's like insane. The paper is so difficult especially the damn summary. I was pretty happy actuall cos' I got like two vocab question right. So it's a yay sitaution for me. I was laughing and jumping and going mad. It's common for me to do that.

So from tomorrow onwards, I'm packed with extra lessons. POA after MT Paper, then Chemistry on wednesday till 5pm, Thursday is either Math or Biology. So.. I'm going to need my Red Bull again. I think it'll be possible for me to get a few As for this MYE. So fingers crossed, and yes, it's going to be disastrous. Why? Because I'll be sleeping so early for a fresh and awaken mind, which means mugging has to take place in the AFTERNOON!!! Yep, soon I'm eyebag-free.

Today is GREAT. I love mondays. The start of craziness, though everyday is crazy day for me. I'm enjoying my life but not the stress.

LOLA!!

Well, crude shit! Mr K is gone for week and we're left to do our Math papers with a relief teacher. The crappiest thing was that we're not done with the syllabus yet.. We left vectors to complete in the recent chapter, and tomorrow's math class is cancelled, oh wow! great...
Though I hate remedials and extra classes, this one is a must. What the heck? Exams are like coming, and the school are sending the teachers of the graduating classes for attachment and courses?! What a crazy thing to do?? What's more math is one of the really important subjects. Damn thing! I'm so gonna be dead. A math, E math and Chemistry will be one of those subjects I'll definitely fail. If I fail Chemistry, it's entirely my fault. But Math? It's not entirely my fault.
Every single subject teachers are doing revision with us, except math!! Thank you, school, you've done a great deal in my life. Seriously, whatever, heck! For goodness sake, the principal, vice-principal and every teacher is telling us that we're graduating and we must put in alot of effort. But how do we do that if the school keep sending teachers away for courses?? Make sense. Well, if I complain that to any teacher, or the principal or whoever working in the school, obviously they'll say that it's part of our job to be independent learners. Oh fine, then might as well, every student don't have to come to school. We can be "independent" learners. Ain't that convenient??

Oh great, what's more Mr K is going to see how far our standard is after the MYE. Fabulous isn't it? What's more, he cancelled tomorrow's extra lesson. Marvellous! We'll see how many people will fail, or do badly. Bear in mind that I'm not the only one who's frustrated with this whole shit. Our teacher left us when we needed him the most. Since Primary 1 and 2 students get to skip exams and have mini topical tests, I don't see why we, independent learners can't skip exams too.
I thought I could learn how to enjoy the nature of math, but now I know I'll be failing, why enjoy and love this freaking damn subject which I hated since Pri 1.

Whatever the heck is, something must be done. I'm just voicing my perspective, free country, free speech! That's what I was taught since young.

I'm tired, drained and completely exhausted. Yes, it isn't the time to be slacking and wasting time like running water. A student's life is completely hectic. I believe it wasn't like this in the past, when studying was so carefree and students could still afford to waste their time to play and not feel stress.



Hate the current weather. Hope it'll rain!!!
Anyway, found the reason why Char loves Marc by Marc Jacobs. YSL shoes are understandable, but Marc by Marc Jacobs... horrifying. So here's one watch I love from Marc by Marc Jacobs.





Wow wow wow, right?? This watch rocks!! OMG!
And YSL's season is caged shoes now. Man, if only I have $$$
Okay, my craziness shall end here.

Until next time. TV time, then books "date".
Mugging starts today, and it'll probably last really late, please pardon me, for sleeping during class, the chances are high though.

Lola ;) :D

There isn't any point if you keep asking me why I'm giving you attitude.
If I wish to say, I'll tell it to you, straight in your face. But I don't wish to, you can't force me to d something against my will. Even though you're a teacher. Don't have to worry at all, my anger or purpose of showing you attitude will never affect my studies nor will it add on to my stress.
Thank you very much for your concern, you're one teacher I'll never forget.

Another day of craziness. Ran my 2.4km today, almost got a 5 point grade, by 15 seconds.
Last week's weather was better, today's weather was insane. It was humid, like there's barely even wind at all. Math was okay, english was funny, P.E. was crazy, Chinese was so-so.., POA was okay, PCE? The class went wild. So that's about today.
I've got to leave the house in an hour's time. It's hellish, when will my mum's vehicle be ready.
Oh god, the exams are coming. Starting with the English paper. Chinese is getting on my nerves. I never get worried over Chinese all my 9 years of education. This year is the worse. Oh yeah, memorise. I'll dump everything after the 1st of June.

Pocket full of stress, thank you very much.
Now, now, where's my dinner??
Lola :)

I'VE BOUGHT MY DENIM VEST!!!
I'M LOVING BLOG-SHOPPING, SO MUCH FOR CONVENIENCE SAKE!
I DON'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THAT TROUBLE, AND CAN SAVE MY TIME FOR STUDYING. YAYNESS!

You're making me hate you! A month, yes a month.
Thank you so much. I don't wish to hear anything more about her. It's insane.
You're making me sick. I can't get my mind of you.

I didn't go to school yesterday. I had this terrible headache and went blank. I hate headaches and gastric pain. Generally, I was really happy today. The jokes that crack me up today totally blew my mind! Z is driving me insane, aka "Tissue Paper". Some name that Candy came up with. But I'll use Zinc, cos' it's my favourite metal. Oh, and during History, we ended the class with Britain's Got Talent- Susan Boyle. She's a lesson of a wake up call!

I think I either need to rely on Red Bull or Tea or probably Coffee. Caffeine. I'd better sleep early. Maybe a little retail therapy may help! I want to use my $20 takashimaya voucher, and hopefully I manage to find my denim vest there, or probably a denim jacket. I'm so into neutral gear , current obsession. The summer is yet to come, and I have to update my wardrobe. I need more 3/4 sleeve blouse and some tops. Maybe a few pairs of shoes. Like velvet flats or pumps. Probably get them after the hellish exams. Again, I have to rush to SCGS on Saturday after Math. Life sucks.

So, I'd probably should be galloping on my horse, heh heh,
Lola :p

That's that!
I need revision, probably another wake up call, by talking to the great wall.
If that's even possible. I'm tolerating indulgence in wacthing ANTM. Goodness! I broke my record. The good thing is that I can watch at least 2 straight episodes in 2 hours. But, I'm afraid it's impossible, Saturday is going to be a long long day. Hopefully, it wouldn't be so humid or I'll just die of.. what's that called?? Forget it. Maybe I'll just drop dead on the floor.

Today, was probably some MATH DAY, 3 hours, and the first hour was pretty tough for me to stay awake, because it's really boring!! Maybe, I wasn't the only one. It was so boring that Mr K gave a break, good~ I think I should really start stocking up my fridge with Red Bull, I heard from Ken that it perks you up and gives you lots of energy. It's true actually, cos' on Christmas, I drank a little mix with som other drink. Which of course, I did not know it was Red Bull until some others told me. The taste wasn't that bad actually. And it really keeps me moving without feeling a tiny bit of fatigue. I am and will sleep early starting from.. err.. Sunday? I'll see to it.

Crushes are totally a huge torture. If only He knew, hate it!!
Expressing it is really easy but once I see Him, horrible and mix feelings. What's the point of telling me that You're not into her anymore, does it mean anything to me or are You just hinting, complete disaster?! I don't know, it's been 3 weeks going on 4, it'll be a month soon. Will you?

I'll ignore this little feeling of mine right now, until it disappears away into the tiny space in my heart, and if... Then we'll see to it again.
Lola!

Half an hour to midnight, and I'm still wide awake.
Goodness me!! Came back from YCG an hour ago, D was contradicting every word I say.
C, as usual, the blur one.. haha :P
Went supper at Mac with C, and talked about everything under the sun. It was crazy, yeshh.. she knows what I mean.

XR was hilarious today. She said Mr K's name so loud by accident when the relief teacher came into class. OMG!! Then the relief teacher sort of play along after that. Huge bizarre craze. The crappy thing was that Mr K wanted us to bring E Math textbook and all, but the assignment he gave us was A Math. So, nevertheless, we still did the work given and I completed it.
The rest of the lessons carry out as usual. P.E. was so much fun again. We ran our 2.4km then came the sudden downpour. So, everyone has to carry on the run next week. Ms T then instructed us to do some totally crazy exercise especially the exercise that exerts force and pressure on your stomach. I hate that. I was complaining so loudly and was counting the seconds with Adeline. Hahahahahahahaha... the good thing was she lets us off early for recess because it was raining and we finished the exercise fast. Cool. I love teachers like her.

I have a ton of revision to do tomorrow and probably write Sher, Car and Char's letters tomorrow, or else they'll kill me, especially Char :P I need retail therapy. Probably I'll go to Taka to spend my vouchers, then go to Kinokuniya or Borders to get Dad's gift.

Got to go sleep now, it's 12.03am.
Lola :D

First of all, thank you to every present, and vouchers, and to all those who wished me on my sweet 16 last firiday, though it's a little late to thank you guys.. I really love all the gifts you gave me :D

Bare with this post.. the last 3 days were really HAPPENING!! I'm not kidding..

Anyway, I think I'm back to my sleeping in class habit again, I should try to sleep early. Or maybe take a elittle nap or something. Well, Chinese 'O' levels are just around the corner, and I definitely have to put in much more effort and ace the MYE Chinese paper, and probably, kick out all the Cs in my report card or else I would have to kill myself. Yes, yes.. it's so rare hearing this from me, well nerds have their secrets too, e.g. Car watching youtube everyday.. GG or 90210. Though I'm a huge fan of ANTM and 90210, I resist temptation.

While homework is piling up high, so is revision, which means I have to speed up and cannot afford to slow down to entertain all these terrible distractions that are leading me to temptation. Well well, I'm also having fun with every present, like the exit sign torch light, the disney princess cup, and a dice that answers my questions. That dice is soooooo INSANE!!! So cute.. OMG!! On the other hand, my mum is laughing her head off at me playing with all my presents. But I can't help it. Some distractions do you good, they take your mind of studying for a little while. And when you're back with the books, you back to the factory producing a product called
STRESS! Wonderful isn't?

Generally, I think LIFE'S A BLAST, you'll never see what's coming behind you. Just like mine..
10 April, the most shocking day of my life. In the morning, I had to follow the dresscode, Black. So it pretty went okay, went to church, took some insane shots with Char and Sher.. Car did not come probably her engine broke down, sad :( Then lunched with dad. Went Fish & Co, birthday memories from that restaurant. He then sent me home about 5 after changing the strap of my watch. From then, the surprises start flowing like insanity. People started coming in from 6.10pm. I completely was unaware who was invited! I just knew that I went to the gate countless time, cos' my mum was so busy in the kitchen. Then finally people just stop streaming in. My room was totally invaded by unexpected people. The people invited are churchies, so I was rather familiar with them. Then the inspiration strikes: PAINT MY ROOM! C'mon, I'm 16, only God knows why I chosen blue when I was Pri 4. Sucks you know!!

Okay, Saturday was outreach so nothing much happened. Sunday was terrifying. We met with a car accident. It was horrid. My mum's car front was totally ripped from a CISCO Auxiliary Police Van. That was insane too. My jaw dropped widely and the adrenalin rush went insane. I was so shocked, my legs were numb when I stepped out of the vehicle. Then the worse thing happened, The 3 of us waited for that damn tow truck to arrive. It took a whole 4 hours, because the tow-driver went the wrong direction and loost his way, not only that, he was from China and came to Singapore to work for only 2 months and wasn't sure of the road.

So now, I have to get back to square one, walking to school, rushing for church and g12, and no more night outings. Sad! Maybe God's trying to tell me something. I wish that sometimes my parents would be more strict towards me. It's a sad thing that they're too open-minded sometimes, I can't remember the feeling of fear and regret of showing them my report book or exam papers. I can't remember the rules and regulations set by them. Now, I'm given unlimited amount of freedom and money. Making major decisions scare me.

Current decision I'm making now is.. Nap time! The night owl has to sleep and hibernate, so I can study tonight :P
Tata, and Lola! :D

I'm officially brain-drained. Accounts lesson was rather empty for me. I couldn't absorb much into my head, reason because the damn air-con wasn't working causing the humidity, adding to it was the weather. It made me so tired and sleepy. Everyone was practically sweating and probably I'm one of the few that are dozing off. Thus causing my attitude to feel rather slacky, not active and make me simply don't feel like talking. What's worse, my gastric is acting up again, and the searing pain just seem to be piercing in my stomach. Generally I don't feel too well to speak at all. Gastric pain sucks! So does life.

I should learn to take my medicine, stubborn me! Taking tablets literally bore me, unless I'm really forced by my mum. Life just get around you and soon you'll have to adapt to changes. Sometimes, I'll just have to adjust to it and soon I'll be just fine. I'll just let everything fall into place and keep my expectations low, Sweet 16 will just go by like no other.

I'll celebrate after the "O"s, I don't have a life right now, so I'll just keep going till the 13 of November. I'm too tired to think of anything, and Thank God for a holiday tomorrow, I'll try to squeeze a little time for study since tomorrow's schedule will be packed. Maybe read a few pages of notes and memorise a few facts, better than sit around not absorbing anything, and then on Saturday the game starts, I'm going to follow what my cousin says, and MUG. So Car wouldn't be the only 'nerd', she'll have a partner.

So happy holidays, and have a great day with you books, and start studying, Life will get back on its feet by November.
Lola!

I understood that stress is a part of life, and not only I understood that. I realise that stress in Sec 4 is just a beginning. JC life is worse, and from my cousin's point of view, she probably think is hell. I'll just use her as a person I can look up to for encouragement, cos' she used to get the same grades as me, and then all of a sudden, she became a 7-pointer. I don't really know how she do it, but I know she is always packed with tuitions, forcefully given by her mother.
Anyway, I'm just going to risk it, and probably, make history in the family and get a 6-pointer. But as they usually say, Actions Speak Louder Than Words. True true, that's why I'm going to stop sleeping in class from tomorrow onwards. Late nights of studying doesn't work, cos' I'll wake up red-eyed, and couldn't really concentrate much in class. My eye bags are constantly giving me a heartache, ever since I bought the eye corrector thingy.

So so so.. I'm currently interviewing people around me on how they study and try to steal some study tips from them cos' I noticed I am an easily distracted person. So I gathered a really handful and rather helpful study tips which probably help me alot!

I've got to rush off for YCG right now, so
Lola! :D

Now, don't ever mention the word freedom in front of me, or else I'll probably just chop your head off or something. Got scolded by Ms M, and I hate it when our class get a scolding from her, cos' you will obviously hear things you would never like to hear. Moreover, you will have no idea how long it'll end. Since last year's scolding, I don't even have the cheek to fail any of her tests. So, let's call in the pressure and bring on the stress, I'm speechless and I admit defeat.

Teachers always have a good way to make students feel guilty, maybe not all students, but at least I am. My skin may be thick at times, but they have their thin moments too. I'm so not going to fail any tests as well as the Mid-Year Exams. I hate it when people literally chop my head. I can see improvements in my Science. Since primary school, I rarely pass Science, and it's always my weakest subject besides Math. I'm more of a language kind of person.
Damn little things in life, if only everything has an answer.

Thank God, that there isn't any homework today, and I can do revision and all. So I'll wave goodbye to the doors of liberty and open them when I need a little breather. But, I will still blog, cos' I feel better after expressing my thoughts, I hate suppressing my stress and problems, cos' I tend to 'explode' after keeping them for too long, like the last time I exploded was about 2 weeks ago. It was horrible and I wouldn't want to go through that phase again.

Closing the doors of liberty and waving freedom goodbye, till I manage my time properly.
Lola!

Is stress counted as a felony? Cos' I want it to be. Then it'll be so cool, and I won't even have to study toohard, or else I'll lend myself in jail, cool huh? That'll be the greatest day of my life. Anyway, all thanks to Car, I'm 15% stress free. Plus the 2 hour free period today due to the absence of Mrs P. So I'm currently 85% stress, it's just an approximation value of crap. I can never notice how my value of stress affect how I study. Maybe I'll just start using the computer obsessively and compulsively, or my handwriting just starts getting horrid, and when I say horrid, it's totally spells out the word "INSANITY"! I wonder what Mr K said is true... hmm.. reading your notes everyday??? I can't possibly do that, cos' I'm more lazy than him. How do I have time for reading notes, when I have so much things to do every single day. I can only study at night, and what's more school ends like so late except wednesday and friday. And I'll be too freaking tired to pick up my books be it picking up NOTES??

Sec 4 pretty much just suck!! That's the reason why students commit suicide. Life is meaningless now, and later. Social Studies test tomorrow, pretty easy for me, it's just like common sense. The economic, improving standards of living, environmental impact and blah blah blah stuff, mostly stuff about political things. Hahaha, imagine me sitting in a seat in the parliament house.. you'll never know, but the bad thing is I'll grow old faster. Maybe, work hard and go work in Paris or NYC. I love fashion, can't help it. Fashion doesn't start in Singapore, the trends just fall here.

Think trench coats, stilettos and D&G, PLUS Bvalgari, Prada and Gucci. Fendi bags, Coach wallets and haircuts from Bergdorf Goodman. Okay, enough said, before I go insane, I can spend more than an hour telling you my favourite designers and all. I shall stop my insanity here, and continue next time.

Let's go back to picking up my notes again, late night study AGAIN.
Lola! :))

Went out as usual, after church service. Had a great time and ended the day at Sakae Sushi at Changi Airport unexpectedly. Finally got my 2 new notebooks, and I promise to do consistent revision till the Mid-Year Exams are over, and then I'll start mugging for my chinese till 1 June. I wonder if I can get a B3 for Chinese.

I want to cut down on shopping but I just can't. What's if all the magazines and mannequins, they just lure you into buying that blouse, shoes and bags. I'm currently resisting all kinds of temptations even though I know the Great Singapore Sale is just around the corner. Trust me, you will be lured into the shops when you feel a tinge of sensation run down your spine, and then you'll fish for your wallet and try all means to get that 'thing' that's waving at you from that shelf. The joy of getting a new blouse, bag or shoes just make me feel happier each time I purchase something.

I learnt something today.. why do people lose faith in themselves even though they know they can make it. Though life is short, people waste most of their time being pessimistic about things around them. Life is torturous enough, so don't make it worse. I'm will be top of the moon, if someone smiles at me, encourages and praise me during the day, and you'll see me smiling like a crazy woman all day long. There will be times to get upset and angry, but don't waste too much of your life getting pissed at someone for just a small matter, no matters can be bigger than the African people living in poverty. I realise that encouragement goes a long way. I enjoy getting back my test papers with praises that say, "Very Good", "Well Done", "Keep it up"and those long personal comments that a teacher gives you. But, obviously that doesn't mean you slacken down and stop studying for a while.

School tomorrow, the beginning of another week. I haven't done my math homework which frustrates me. I shall be a good girl and do it right after this, and then maybe go grab something to eat to fill my hungry stomach.

Got to blast off to the planet of math.
Lola! :))

I'm sick and tired of Math OFFICIALLY!!

I've got no choice.. cos' there isn't any choice. Sometimes, I search for a good reason for going to school. The reason we study so hard is to gget a good-paying job in the future, and after getting that good-paying job, we work so hard to get a promotion. After the promotion, we want to be the top. People are never satisfied, but on the other hand, there are people who aren't so career-minded. They just want to have a good job, and then find their perfect soulmate and then settle down with the love of their life and maybe, have kids and watch them grow up, and the process starts again. In reality, money controls the world. The economy goes down, recession strikes, people start getting worried if they'll get the retrenchment, then things in the supermarket start rising up like crazy, housewives shriek in dismay and all goes down... the world is moving in circles.

Anyway, I'll only think like that if I start hating some subjects like A Math.
Well, I believe teachers make a difference in your life. The way they impact, influence and encourage you. The little things they do to show their love, care and concern. They are the world's most patient people you have ever known. They scold you because they care, while some maybe.. And all the above just doesn't match me, so I can never become a teacher. I can just freaking lose my temper at any moment. I can frustrated when someone don't get the message I'm trying to convey. I get frustrated with myself if I don't understand some things that I have to understand, like Math.
Seriously, I can only boost my self-esteem in math when I start getting good grades for it, but some math questions just never fail to put me off. It's complicated really..

I'm really stress right now, and this feeling of mine is bugging me like crazy. I haven't been revising lately and it makes me feel really guilty, even though I know what I'm doing is wrong. I have been using this damn laptop for 4 consecutive days. Is this a sin?? I know it is wrong and the Mid-Year Exams are in 3 weeks. and I'm freaking slacking like no one's business. I have to work with pressure. I enjoy studying in a hectic, pressurising and stress-free environment. I know it doesn't make any sense at all, but I couldn't bear to see my life stuck in a mess, and if I don't study now, I will feel distraught after getting back my hellish results after the Mid-Year Exams.

I really need a wake up call! Throw in some inspiration with style and I'll bring it on the "runway". And whenever I'm ready, I'll press the green button and the aftermath will be a sweet little surprise. Tell me about Embracing My Awesomeness!

Till the "wow-factor" is back.. I'll give you...
LOLA! :D

Isn't life great when it's filled with joy, fun and laughter?
A smile is a gift you can give to someone everyday..


Anyway, Friday is a great day. Had an insane time after POA, solving the unsolved.
Was so tired that I slept on the bus. Message was kinda long but it wasn't boring, it was kinda fun listening to expressive authors write about themselves.
Tomorrow's outreach, it means that I have an abundance of time to do some revision before heading to the bbq pit. I doubt everyone will be punctual..

ANTM never fails to make my day. I love ANTM like ALOT!! But... Selena Gomez makes my day too :D

I'm so so so excited, estatic and shocked.. I couldn't find the best word to describe my current feeling right now. I've been given a chance to do my duty on a special event :)))
And and and, I get to do my duty at the 11am service at TKK.. Isn't this amazing, thank God!!
I'm tired but after receiving my duty schedule, I became wide awake and refreshed :D
Ain't this cool :P I'm loving it!! Thank you God!!! It's has been the time I've been dreaming of!!

"My eyes are small but they have seen
The beauty of enormous things.."

Until tomorrow,
LOLA!!

It's Thursday, and an hour of math. I thought that Mr K will not come in for lesson because the MOE officials are here.

Anyway, I totally drained out and just gain back my energy from my nap just now. Chemistry test tomorrow, probably it's one of the easier topics that I love.
Mr P did not come for History today, and I successfully completed my essay, which is a good thing. Haven't been doing proper revision, and the 'O's are coming really soon.
I seriously need help in A Math. It's all thanks to my sleeping in class habit last year. I SHOULD'VE KNOWN!!! My gosh.. Math really drive me insane. I can spend hours revising the chapters and revive them again in my brain. Maybe I'll ask Car or MT to help me, OR maybe I'll attempt them by myself, and see if I inherited my dad's traits in math.

I've got to start revision now, whether I like it or not, cos' I do not have a choice.
This is one thing I've learnt: A Student's Job is 24/7.
Advantages: 1) Holidays(including the weekends, public holidays and school holidays)
2) You can start your job anytime during the holidays and weekends.
3) Exams, to see how well you have performed after weeks of hard work.
4)You have fun!!

Disadvantages: 1) You need proper time management.
2) You start "work" at 7.25am on weekdays till 3.45pm or later than that.
(It may be an advantage or a disadvantage.)
3) You receive progress reports to show how well you've done after a
major exam.

So far, that's all I can think of, I'll add on to the list as soon I thought of it!

Rants of the day:

I stressed and drained out, faced with distractions everyday.
It's getting worse and worse each day.
That "you-know-who"is getting on my nerves by blasting music that does no good to one's ears.
Cursing, swearing, irritating.. you name it..
It's impossible for me to be nice to him again.
Everyday is like a "live-concert".
Talk about peace. Have you ever seen someone who does not appreciate what you did for him/her? And in return, instead of a thank you, they bite the hand that feeds them. How cruel can it be? I sometimes dread coming home. What's the point of coming home when you're face with a one-sided "war" every single day. You'll count yourself lucky if you don't see him at home.
The songs he plays are usually on the top 20 UK Chart, but once you hear him blasting them on his laptop or handphone, you'll eventually hate the song, cos' it'll reminds you of that irritating person who will never get off your nerves.
Now, it's just one day at a time, as soon as I'm at a legible age to move out and earn some cash, I'll be gone in no time. Trust me, I'll be living my life like no other.

Until tomorrow..
Lola! :)

So.. today was rather a perfect day to slack.. cos' it will then complete my entire day.

No math lesson today, cos math teacher had to attend to some interview thingy with the MOE officials, and English was pretty slacken for me too!! I finished my compo earlier.

Anyway, enough said. I pretty love Wednesday.
No reason. I can't forget him, told Dev about it today, she told me hers too :p
POA Tuition went a little nhaywire today. Georgina asked me where should the money go after you receive your money from your debtor, I replied.. Shopping Mall!!! Hahaha.. and then she said, NO, it goes to the bank.. haha.. she cracks me up. Then she ask me some other questions and I gave her REALLY PRACTICAL answers.. haha..

So.. I'm sort of enjoying my Wednesday like no other, but but but, tomorrow there'll be Biology Test on our class favourite topic, Reproductive System In Humans.. lol, there's alot of functions to memorise, but it's better than the eye chapter.. like seriously.

Selena Gomez and Taylor Swift rocks my smelly socks AGAIN!!

Until next time...
Lola!! :D

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SGS, EFC

I like my wardrobe and my room! Currently crazing over sudoku, wonder why!! Likes vegetables lots :)) I've got a large appetite, and I like being thin, it's ironic!

I want my money back.
Yeah, I don't pay for laziness, and you know who you are.
Seeking sympathy doesn't work for me anymore, I'm getting sick, so please come up with new ideas to entertain me. I'll be glad to actually. So, before you start anything, please think of the consequences. You'll end up seeking for people to join with AGAIN!
Oh, and about originality, why don't you grab some first, before trying to steal from someone.
Your schemes doesn't work for me anymore, cheerios, L!

Oh yeah, I'll be mean if you want me to. I'll play the game even though it risks my hands to get dirty. I'll be exceptionally pleased, and will be really kind to stick plasters all over your face. You have caused troubles to so many and blame each and everyone of us fo hurting you when the problem lies with you, and you alone.

How irritating can you be??
This is sheer shit, like seriously, though it's stupid to keep on clinging on to hope.
I hate you!! Hoping for that very chance that one day I'll forget about you.
It's dumb and irritating when you told me about her, and I stupidly play along!
Damn thing! I wish I could hate you, it's less suffering than crushing on you.


I'll set a rule that I'll use the computer at night.
And then stop burning the midnight oil and fully concentrate on my studies.
From tomorrow onwards of course. After the Mid-Year Exams, it's Chinese all the way, till 1 June is over. Oh yeah. Then I'll start mugging for A & E Math and Chemistry.
The rest I can mug when I'm confident for Math and Chemistry.

Lola.

*I should change lola to something else, it's getting wierd~!

Oh yeah, you won't believe it.
I'm bringing Chinese into my subjects of hope of becoming one of the high passing range.
Yes, you got to believe it. You'll see me making magic changing F9s to A1s will make your jaw drop. Today's MT Paper, was one of the best Chinese composition I've ever written. It's like OMG!! Bang bang bang!! Random. We'll sing Bang the Drum by S.G.

Seriously, my hard work has paid off for Chinese, but my Ms L is never satisfied, like she kept on blaming us for watching movies during Chinese lessons last year, but after all, our class still topped the whole cohort for chinese last year though the movies we watched were English movies. Wierd huh? Teachers are never satisfied with your results.

I'm crazy over Selena Gomez, Taylor Swift and Lady Ga Ga.
They rock my smelly socks. Social Studies next Tuesday. I'm so gonna have a great laugh, you'll know why...

Okay, firstly I was jumping with joy after EL Paper 2. It's like insane. The paper is so difficult especially the damn summary. I was pretty happy actuall cos' I got like two vocab question right. So it's a yay sitaution for me. I was laughing and jumping and going mad. It's common for me to do that.

So from tomorrow onwards, I'm packed with extra lessons. POA after MT Paper, then Chemistry on wednesday till 5pm, Thursday is either Math or Biology. So.. I'm going to need my Red Bull again. I think it'll be possible for me to get a few As for this MYE. So fingers crossed, and yes, it's going to be disastrous. Why? Because I'll be sleeping so early for a fresh and awaken mind, which means mugging has to take place in the AFTERNOON!!! Yep, soon I'm eyebag-free.

Today is GREAT. I love mondays. The start of craziness, though everyday is crazy day for me. I'm enjoying my life but not the stress.

LOLA!!

Well, crude shit! Mr K is gone for week and we're left to do our Math papers with a relief teacher. The crappiest thing was that we're not done with the syllabus yet.. We left vectors to complete in the recent chapter, and tomorrow's math class is cancelled, oh wow! great...
Though I hate remedials and extra classes, this one is a must. What the heck? Exams are like coming, and the school are sending the teachers of the graduating classes for attachment and courses?! What a crazy thing to do?? What's more math is one of the really important subjects. Damn thing! I'm so gonna be dead. A math, E math and Chemistry will be one of those subjects I'll definitely fail. If I fail Chemistry, it's entirely my fault. But Math? It's not entirely my fault.
Every single subject teachers are doing revision with us, except math!! Thank you, school, you've done a great deal in my life. Seriously, whatever, heck! For goodness sake, the principal, vice-principal and every teacher is telling us that we're graduating and we must put in alot of effort. But how do we do that if the school keep sending teachers away for courses?? Make sense. Well, if I complain that to any teacher, or the principal or whoever working in the school, obviously they'll say that it's part of our job to be independent learners. Oh fine, then might as well, every student don't have to come to school. We can be "independent" learners. Ain't that convenient??

Oh great, what's more Mr K is going to see how far our standard is after the MYE. Fabulous isn't it? What's more, he cancelled tomorrow's extra lesson. Marvellous! We'll see how many people will fail, or do badly. Bear in mind that I'm not the only one who's frustrated with this whole shit. Our teacher left us when we needed him the most. Since Primary 1 and 2 students get to skip exams and have mini topical tests, I don't see why we, independent learners can't skip exams too.
I thought I could learn how to enjoy the nature of math, but now I know I'll be failing, why enjoy and love this freaking damn subject which I hated since Pri 1.

Whatever the heck is, something must be done. I'm just voicing my perspective, free country, free speech! That's what I was taught since young.

I'm tired, drained and completely exhausted. Yes, it isn't the time to be slacking and wasting time like running water. A student's life is completely hectic. I believe it wasn't like this in the past, when studying was so carefree and students could still afford to waste their time to play and not feel stress.



Hate the current weather. Hope it'll rain!!!
Anyway, found the reason why Char loves Marc by Marc Jacobs. YSL shoes are understandable, but Marc by Marc Jacobs... horrifying. So here's one watch I love from Marc by Marc Jacobs.





Wow wow wow, right?? This watch rocks!! OMG!
And YSL's season is caged shoes now. Man, if only I have $$$
Okay, my craziness shall end here.

Until next time. TV time, then books "date".
Mugging starts today, and it'll probably last really late, please pardon me, for sleeping during class, the chances are high though.

Lola ;) :D

There isn't any point if you keep asking me why I'm giving you attitude.
If I wish to say, I'll tell it to you, straight in your face. But I don't wish to, you can't force me to d something against my will. Even though you're a teacher. Don't have to worry at all, my anger or purpose of showing you attitude will never affect my studies nor will it add on to my stress.
Thank you very much for your concern, you're one teacher I'll never forget.

Another day of craziness. Ran my 2.4km today, almost got a 5 point grade, by 15 seconds.
Last week's weather was better, today's weather was insane. It was humid, like there's barely even wind at all. Math was okay, english was funny, P.E. was crazy, Chinese was so-so.., POA was okay, PCE? The class went wild. So that's about today.
I've got to leave the house in an hour's time. It's hellish, when will my mum's vehicle be ready.
Oh god, the exams are coming. Starting with the English paper. Chinese is getting on my nerves. I never get worried over Chinese all my 9 years of education. This year is the worse. Oh yeah, memorise. I'll dump everything after the 1st of June.

Pocket full of stress, thank you very much.
Now, now, where's my dinner??
Lola :)

I'VE BOUGHT MY DENIM VEST!!!
I'M LOVING BLOG-SHOPPING, SO MUCH FOR CONVENIENCE SAKE!
I DON'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THAT TROUBLE, AND CAN SAVE MY TIME FOR STUDYING. YAYNESS!

You're making me hate you! A month, yes a month.
Thank you so much. I don't wish to hear anything more about her. It's insane.
You're making me sick. I can't get my mind of you.

I didn't go to school yesterday. I had this terrible headache and went blank. I hate headaches and gastric pain. Generally, I was really happy today. The jokes that crack me up today totally blew my mind! Z is driving me insane, aka "Tissue Paper". Some name that Candy came up with. But I'll use Zinc, cos' it's my favourite metal. Oh, and during History, we ended the class with Britain's Got Talent- Susan Boyle. She's a lesson of a wake up call!

I think I either need to rely on Red Bull or Tea or probably Coffee. Caffeine. I'd better sleep early. Maybe a little retail therapy may help! I want to use my $20 takashimaya voucher, and hopefully I manage to find my denim vest there, or probably a denim jacket. I'm so into neutral gear , current obsession. The summer is yet to come, and I have to update my wardrobe. I need more 3/4 sleeve blouse and some tops. Maybe a few pairs of shoes. Like velvet flats or pumps. Probably get them after the hellish exams. Again, I have to rush to SCGS on Saturday after Math. Life sucks.

So, I'd probably should be galloping on my horse, heh heh,
Lola :p

That's that!
I need revision, probably another wake up call, by talking to the great wall.
If that's even possible. I'm tolerating indulgence in wacthing ANTM. Goodness! I broke my record. The good thing is that I can watch at least 2 straight episodes in 2 hours. But, I'm afraid it's impossible, Saturday is going to be a long long day. Hopefully, it wouldn't be so humid or I'll just die of.. what's that called?? Forget it. Maybe I'll just drop dead on the floor.

Today, was probably some MATH DAY, 3 hours, and the first hour was pretty tough for me to stay awake, because it's really boring!! Maybe, I wasn't the only one. It was so boring that Mr K gave a break, good~ I think I should really start stocking up my fridge with Red Bull, I heard from Ken that it perks you up and gives you lots of energy. It's true actually, cos' on Christmas, I drank a little mix with som other drink. Which of course, I did not know it was Red Bull until some others told me. The taste wasn't that bad actually. And it really keeps me moving without feeling a tiny bit of fatigue. I am and will sleep early starting from.. err.. Sunday? I'll see to it.

Crushes are totally a huge torture. If only He knew, hate it!!
Expressing it is really easy but once I see Him, horrible and mix feelings. What's the point of telling me that You're not into her anymore, does it mean anything to me or are You just hinting, complete disaster?! I don't know, it's been 3 weeks going on 4, it'll be a month soon. Will you?

I'll ignore this little feeling of mine right now, until it disappears away into the tiny space in my heart, and if... Then we'll see to it again.
Lola!

Half an hour to midnight, and I'm still wide awake.
Goodness me!! Came back from YCG an hour ago, D was contradicting every word I say.
C, as usual, the blur one.. haha :P
Went supper at Mac with C, and talked about everything under the sun. It was crazy, yeshh.. she knows what I mean.

XR was hilarious today. She said Mr K's name so loud by accident when the relief teacher came into class. OMG!! Then the relief teacher sort of play along after that. Huge bizarre craze. The crappy thing was that Mr K wanted us to bring E Math textbook and all, but the assignment he gave us was A Math. So, nevertheless, we still did the work given and I completed it.
The rest of the lessons carry out as usual. P.E. was so much fun again. We ran our 2.4km then came the sudden downpour. So, everyone has to carry on the run next week. Ms T then instructed us to do some totally crazy exercise especially the exercise that exerts force and pressure on your stomach. I hate that. I was complaining so loudly and was counting the seconds with Adeline. Hahahahahahahaha... the good thing was she lets us off early for recess because it was raining and we finished the exercise fast. Cool. I love teachers like her.

I have a ton of revision to do tomorrow and probably write Sher, Car and Char's letters tomorrow, or else they'll kill me, especially Char :P I need retail therapy. Probably I'll go to Taka to spend my vouchers, then go to Kinokuniya or Borders to get Dad's gift.

Got to go sleep now, it's 12.03am.
Lola :D

First of all, thank you to every present, and vouchers, and to all those who wished me on my sweet 16 last firiday, though it's a little late to thank you guys.. I really love all the gifts you gave me :D

Bare with this post.. the last 3 days were really HAPPENING!! I'm not kidding..

Anyway, I think I'm back to my sleeping in class habit again, I should try to sleep early. Or maybe take a elittle nap or something. Well, Chinese 'O' levels are just around the corner, and I definitely have to put in much more effort and ace the MYE Chinese paper, and probably, kick out all the Cs in my report card or else I would have to kill myself. Yes, yes.. it's so rare hearing this from me, well nerds have their secrets too, e.g. Car watching youtube everyday.. GG or 90210. Though I'm a huge fan of ANTM and 90210, I resist temptation.

While homework is piling up high, so is revision, which means I have to speed up and cannot afford to slow down to entertain all these terrible distractions that are leading me to temptation. Well well, I'm also having fun with every present, like the exit sign torch light, the disney princess cup, and a dice that answers my questions. That dice is soooooo INSANE!!! So cute.. OMG!! On the other hand, my mum is laughing her head off at me playing with all my presents. But I can't help it. Some distractions do you good, they take your mind of studying for a little while. And when you're back with the books, you back to the factory producing a product called
STRESS! Wonderful isn't?

Generally, I think LIFE'S A BLAST, you'll never see what's coming behind you. Just like mine..
10 April, the most shocking day of my life. In the morning, I had to follow the dresscode, Black. So it pretty went okay, went to church, took some insane shots with Char and Sher.. Car did not come probably her engine broke down, sad :( Then lunched with dad. Went Fish & Co, birthday memories from that restaurant. He then sent me home about 5 after changing the strap of my watch. From then, the surprises start flowing like insanity. People started coming in from 6.10pm. I completely was unaware who was invited! I just knew that I went to the gate countless time, cos' my mum was so busy in the kitchen. Then finally people just stop streaming in. My room was totally invaded by unexpected people. The people invited are churchies, so I was rather familiar with them. Then the inspiration strikes: PAINT MY ROOM! C'mon, I'm 16, only God knows why I chosen blue when I was Pri 4. Sucks you know!!

Okay, Saturday was outreach so nothing much happened. Sunday was terrifying. We met with a car accident. It was horrid. My mum's car front was totally ripped from a CISCO Auxiliary Police Van. That was insane too. My jaw dropped widely and the adrenalin rush went insane. I was so shocked, my legs were numb when I stepped out of the vehicle. Then the worse thing happened, The 3 of us waited for that damn tow truck to arrive. It took a whole 4 hours, because the tow-driver went the wrong direction and loost his way, not only that, he was from China and came to Singapore to work for only 2 months and wasn't sure of the road.

So now, I have to get back to square one, walking to school, rushing for church and g12, and no more night outings. Sad! Maybe God's trying to tell me something. I wish that sometimes my parents would be more strict towards me. It's a sad thing that they're too open-minded sometimes, I can't remember the feeling of fear and regret of showing them my report book or exam papers. I can't remember the rules and regulations set by them. Now, I'm given unlimited amount of freedom and money. Making major decisions scare me.

Current decision I'm making now is.. Nap time! The night owl has to sleep and hibernate, so I can study tonight :P
Tata, and Lola! :D

I'm officially brain-drained. Accounts lesson was rather empty for me. I couldn't absorb much into my head, reason because the damn air-con wasn't working causing the humidity, adding to it was the weather. It made me so tired and sleepy. Everyone was practically sweating and probably I'm one of the few that are dozing off. Thus causing my attitude to feel rather slacky, not active and make me simply don't feel like talking. What's worse, my gastric is acting up again, and the searing pain just seem to be piercing in my stomach. Generally I don't feel too well to speak at all. Gastric pain sucks! So does life.

I should learn to take my medicine, stubborn me! Taking tablets literally bore me, unless I'm really forced by my mum. Life just get around you and soon you'll have to adapt to changes. Sometimes, I'll just have to adjust to it and soon I'll be just fine. I'll just let everything fall into place and keep my expectations low, Sweet 16 will just go by like no other.

I'll celebrate after the "O"s, I don't have a life right now, so I'll just keep going till the 13 of November. I'm too tired to think of anything, and Thank God for a holiday tomorrow, I'll try to squeeze a little time for study since tomorrow's schedule will be packed. Maybe read a few pages of notes and memorise a few facts, better than sit around not absorbing anything, and then on Saturday the game starts, I'm going to follow what my cousin says, and MUG. So Car wouldn't be the only 'nerd', she'll have a partner.

So happy holidays, and have a great day with you books, and start studying, Life will get back on its feet by November.
Lola!

I understood that stress is a part of life, and not only I understood that. I realise that stress in Sec 4 is just a beginning. JC life is worse, and from my cousin's point of view, she probably think is hell. I'll just use her as a person I can look up to for encouragement, cos' she used to get the same grades as me, and then all of a sudden, she became a 7-pointer. I don't really know how she do it, but I know she is always packed with tuitions, forcefully given by her mother.
Anyway, I'm just going to risk it, and probably, make history in the family and get a 6-pointer. But as they usually say, Actions Speak Louder Than Words. True true, that's why I'm going to stop sleeping in class from tomorrow onwards. Late nights of studying doesn't work, cos' I'll wake up red-eyed, and couldn't really concentrate much in class. My eye bags are constantly giving me a heartache, ever since I bought the eye corrector thingy.

So so so.. I'm currently interviewing people around me on how they study and try to steal some study tips from them cos' I noticed I am an easily distracted person. So I gathered a really handful and rather helpful study tips which probably help me alot!

I've got to rush off for YCG right now, so
Lola! :D

Now, don't ever mention the word freedom in front of me, or else I'll probably just chop your head off or something. Got scolded by Ms M, and I hate it when our class get a scolding from her, cos' you will obviously hear things you would never like to hear. Moreover, you will have no idea how long it'll end. Since last year's scolding, I don't even have the cheek to fail any of her tests. So, let's call in the pressure and bring on the stress, I'm speechless and I admit defeat.

Teachers always have a good way to make students feel guilty, maybe not all students, but at least I am. My skin may be thick at times, but they have their thin moments too. I'm so not going to fail any tests as well as the Mid-Year Exams. I hate it when people literally chop my head. I can see improvements in my Science. Since primary school, I rarely pass Science, and it's always my weakest subject besides Math. I'm more of a language kind of person.
Damn little things in life, if only everything has an answer.

Thank God, that there isn't any homework today, and I can do revision and all. So I'll wave goodbye to the doors of liberty and open them when I need a little breather. But, I will still blog, cos' I feel better after expressing my thoughts, I hate suppressing my stress and problems, cos' I tend to 'explode' after keeping them for too long, like the last time I exploded was about 2 weeks ago. It was horrible and I wouldn't want to go through that phase again.

Closing the doors of liberty and waving freedom goodbye, till I manage my time properly.
Lola!

Is stress counted as a felony? Cos' I want it to be. Then it'll be so cool, and I won't even have to study toohard, or else I'll lend myself in jail, cool huh? That'll be the greatest day of my life. Anyway, all thanks to Car, I'm 15% stress free. Plus the 2 hour free period today due to the absence of Mrs P. So I'm currently 85% stress, it's just an approximation value of crap. I can never notice how my value of stress affect how I study. Maybe I'll just start using the computer obsessively and compulsively, or my handwriting just starts getting horrid, and when I say horrid, it's totally spells out the word "INSANITY"! I wonder what Mr K said is true... hmm.. reading your notes everyday??? I can't possibly do that, cos' I'm more lazy than him. How do I have time for reading notes, when I have so much things to do every single day. I can only study at night, and what's more school ends like so late except wednesday and friday. And I'll be too freaking tired to pick up my books be it picking up NOTES??

Sec 4 pretty much just suck!! That's the reason why students commit suicide. Life is meaningless now, and later. Social Studies test tomorrow, pretty easy for me, it's just like common sense. The economic, improving standards of living, environmental impact and blah blah blah stuff, mostly stuff about political things. Hahaha, imagine me sitting in a seat in the parliament house.. you'll never know, but the bad thing is I'll grow old faster. Maybe, work hard and go work in Paris or NYC. I love fashion, can't help it. Fashion doesn't start in Singapore, the trends just fall here.

Think trench coats, stilettos and D&G, PLUS Bvalgari, Prada and Gucci. Fendi bags, Coach wallets and haircuts from Bergdorf Goodman. Okay, enough said, before I go insane, I can spend more than an hour telling you my favourite designers and all. I shall stop my insanity here, and continue next time.

Let's go back to picking up my notes again, late night study AGAIN.
Lola! :))

Went out as usual, after church service. Had a great time and ended the day at Sakae Sushi at Changi Airport unexpectedly. Finally got my 2 new notebooks, and I promise to do consistent revision till the Mid-Year Exams are over, and then I'll start mugging for my chinese till 1 June. I wonder if I can get a B3 for Chinese.

I want to cut down on shopping but I just can't. What's if all the magazines and mannequins, they just lure you into buying that blouse, shoes and bags. I'm currently resisting all kinds of temptations even though I know the Great Singapore Sale is just around the corner. Trust me, you will be lured into the shops when you feel a tinge of sensation run down your spine, and then you'll fish for your wallet and try all means to get that 'thing' that's waving at you from that shelf. The joy of getting a new blouse, bag or shoes just make me feel happier each time I purchase something.

I learnt something today.. why do people lose faith in themselves even though they know they can make it. Though life is short, people waste most of their time being pessimistic about things around them. Life is torturous enough, so don't make it worse. I'm will be top of the moon, if someone smiles at me, encourages and praise me during the day, and you'll see me smiling like a crazy woman all day long. There will be times to get upset and angry, but don't waste too much of your life getting pissed at someone for just a small matter, no matters can be bigger than the African people living in poverty. I realise that encouragement goes a long way. I enjoy getting back my test papers with praises that say, "Very Good", "Well Done", "Keep it up"and those long personal comments that a teacher gives you. But, obviously that doesn't mean you slacken down and stop studying for a while.

School tomorrow, the beginning of another week. I haven't done my math homework which frustrates me. I shall be a good girl and do it right after this, and then maybe go grab something to eat to fill my hungry stomach.

Got to blast off to the planet of math.
Lola! :))

I'm sick and tired of Math OFFICIALLY!!

I've got no choice.. cos' there isn't any choice. Sometimes, I search for a good reason for going to school. The reason we study so hard is to gget a good-paying job in the future, and after getting that good-paying job, we work so hard to get a promotion. After the promotion, we want to be the top. People are never satisfied, but on the other hand, there are people who aren't so career-minded. They just want to have a good job, and then find their perfect soulmate and then settle down with the love of their life and maybe, have kids and watch them grow up, and the process starts again. In reality, money controls the world. The economy goes down, recession strikes, people start getting worried if they'll get the retrenchment, then things in the supermarket start rising up like crazy, housewives shriek in dismay and all goes down... the world is moving in circles.

Anyway, I'll only think like that if I start hating some subjects like A Math.
Well, I believe teachers make a difference in your life. The way they impact, influence and encourage you. The little things they do to show their love, care and concern. They are the world's most patient people you have ever known. They scold you because they care, while some maybe.. And all the above just doesn't match me, so I can never become a teacher. I can just freaking lose my temper at any moment. I can frustrated when someone don't get the message I'm trying to convey. I get frustrated with myself if I don't understand some things that I have to understand, like Math.
Seriously, I can only boost my self-esteem in math when I start getting good grades for it, but some math questions just never fail to put me off. It's complicated really..

I'm really stress right now, and this feeling of mine is bugging me like crazy. I haven't been revising lately and it makes me feel really guilty, even though I know what I'm doing is wrong. I have been using this damn laptop for 4 consecutive days. Is this a sin?? I know it is wrong and the Mid-Year Exams are in 3 weeks. and I'm freaking slacking like no one's business. I have to work with pressure. I enjoy studying in a hectic, pressurising and stress-free environment. I know it doesn't make any sense at all, but I couldn't bear to see my life stuck in a mess, and if I don't study now, I will feel distraught after getting back my hellish results after the Mid-Year Exams.

I really need a wake up call! Throw in some inspiration with style and I'll bring it on the "runway". And whenever I'm ready, I'll press the green button and the aftermath will be a sweet little surprise. Tell me about Embracing My Awesomeness!

Till the "wow-factor" is back.. I'll give you...
LOLA! :D

Isn't life great when it's filled with joy, fun and laughter?
A smile is a gift you can give to someone everyday..


Anyway, Friday is a great day. Had an insane time after POA, solving the unsolved.
Was so tired that I slept on the bus. Message was kinda long but it wasn't boring, it was kinda fun listening to expressive authors write about themselves.
Tomorrow's outreach, it means that I have an abundance of time to do some revision before heading to the bbq pit. I doubt everyone will be punctual..

ANTM never fails to make my day. I love ANTM like ALOT!! But... Selena Gomez makes my day too :D

I'm so so so excited, estatic and shocked.. I couldn't find the best word to describe my current feeling right now. I've been given a chance to do my duty on a special event :)))
And and and, I get to do my duty at the 11am service at TKK.. Isn't this amazing, thank God!!
I'm tired but after receiving my duty schedule, I became wide awake and refreshed :D
Ain't this cool :P I'm loving it!! Thank you God!!! It's has been the time I've been dreaming of!!

"My eyes are small but they have seen
The beauty of enormous things.."

Until tomorrow,
LOLA!!

It's Thursday, and an hour of math. I thought that Mr K will not come in for lesson because the MOE officials are here.

Anyway, I totally drained out and just gain back my energy from my nap just now. Chemistry test tomorrow, probably it's one of the easier topics that I love.
Mr P did not come for History today, and I successfully completed my essay, which is a good thing. Haven't been doing proper revision, and the 'O's are coming really soon.
I seriously need help in A Math. It's all thanks to my sleeping in class habit last year. I SHOULD'VE KNOWN!!! My gosh.. Math really drive me insane. I can spend hours revising the chapters and revive them again in my brain. Maybe I'll ask Car or MT to help me, OR maybe I'll attempt them by myself, and see if I inherited my dad's traits in math.

I've got to start revision now, whether I like it or not, cos' I do not have a choice.
This is one thing I've learnt: A Student's Job is 24/7.
Advantages: 1) Holidays(including the weekends, public holidays and school holidays)
2) You can start your job anytime during the holidays and weekends.
3) Exams, to see how well you have performed after weeks of hard work.
4)You have fun!!

Disadvantages: 1) You need proper time management.
2) You start "work" at 7.25am on weekdays till 3.45pm or later than that.
(It may be an advantage or a disadvantage.)
3) You receive progress reports to show how well you've done after a
major exam.

So far, that's all I can think of, I'll add on to the list as soon I thought of it!

Rants of the day:

I stressed and drained out, faced with distractions everyday.
It's getting worse and worse each day.
That "you-know-who"is getting on my nerves by blasting music that does no good to one's ears.
Cursing, swearing, irritating.. you name it..
It's impossible for me to be nice to him again.
Everyday is like a "live-concert".
Talk about peace. Have you ever seen someone who does not appreciate what you did for him/her? And in return, instead of a thank you, they bite the hand that feeds them. How cruel can it be? I sometimes dread coming home. What's the point of coming home when you're face with a one-sided "war" every single day. You'll count yourself lucky if you don't see him at home.
The songs he plays are usually on the top 20 UK Chart, but once you hear him blasting them on his laptop or handphone, you'll eventually hate the song, cos' it'll reminds you of that irritating person who will never get off your nerves.
Now, it's just one day at a time, as soon as I'm at a legible age to move out and earn some cash, I'll be gone in no time. Trust me, I'll be living my life like no other.

Until tomorrow..
Lola! :)

So.. today was rather a perfect day to slack.. cos' it will then complete my entire day.

No math lesson today, cos math teacher had to attend to some interview thingy with the MOE officials, and English was pretty slacken for me too!! I finished my compo earlier.

Anyway, enough said. I pretty love Wednesday.
No reason. I can't forget him, told Dev about it today, she told me hers too :p
POA Tuition went a little nhaywire today. Georgina asked me where should the money go after you receive your money from your debtor, I replied.. Shopping Mall!!! Hahaha.. and then she said, NO, it goes to the bank.. haha.. she cracks me up. Then she ask me some other questions and I gave her REALLY PRACTICAL answers.. haha..

So.. I'm sort of enjoying my Wednesday like no other, but but but, tomorrow there'll be Biology Test on our class favourite topic, Reproductive System In Humans.. lol, there's alot of functions to memorise, but it's better than the eye chapter.. like seriously.

Selena Gomez and Taylor Swift rocks my smelly socks AGAIN!!

Until next time...
Lola!! :D

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