Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Life With Him
The end of yet another month!I'm so tired and feel like I am being forced to school, sort of actually!
After English lesson today, I almost had the urge to give up my studies though it was just a sudden act of stupidity. Thank God for my dad who brought me to see some $12m condominium somewhere near Goodwood Park Hotel. My dad has a great way of motivating me to study, since I'm such a realistic kind of person. I'm literally living by hours in school, one lesson after the other.. and at home, I live by minutes, sometime I get so sick of life that I want to give up everything, but after thinking deeply.. I rather have a "no-life" life right now by "slogging" so hard than have a "no-life" life in the future.
Anyway, here's the most important part of this post.
I getting sick of him and life with him is so no getting any better, and yes, some of you should know who is he. Damn thing! What's with his slacking attitude about thing around the house and his studies. I wonder why my parents would want to spoil him especially my mum. For goodness sake, he is 14!! I don't see them poking their noses or caring much about me when I was 14! Though both of us differ by maturity. He puts me off with his stinky attitude. Now, most of his teachers know me, and this is a bad thing because.. I don't behave like him, we are like the complete opposite kind of siblings. I don't get hook onto computer games and all, I don't understand why people like him could not care less about his studies, which is kinda dumb. I sometimes wonder who's traits did he inherit from!!??
It's absurd, isn't it?? So far, his only strongest point that I admire is his strength in Math. He doesn't pay attention in class according to what his Math teacher complains..
I never have any thought of even speaking to Mrs S, his form teacher ever, since I heard rumours that she is fierce and strict, etc.. But after coincidentally bumping into her, she is rather nice and gives me an impression of a really understanding teacher.
Anyway, this is it.. till next time, I would really burst out in rage due to overwhelmed stress and anger. It happened last Thursday after many months, I wonder when will be the next one.
The bursting of rage is hidden in the layers of my tiny heart.. as said, you'll never know what's in my head...
Until then,
Lola :D